Sleeping Beauty

Happy Birthday to me – Tori slept seven straight hours last night! I fed her at 11:00 and she didn’t wake up for another feeding until 6:00 AM. The night before she did a 5.5 hour stretch. This is probably a fluke but I’ll take it. Tanner wasn’t sleeping through the night until he was 6 months old (ouch) but Ty was about 2 months corrected (which technically was also 6 months LOL). Maybe Tori will beat them both? Wouldn’t THAT be nice? I don’t consider it sleeping through the night until they hit a 9 hour stretch though because mommy needs 9 hours so it won’t count til then. Unfortunately, because I was working on these pictures…I didn’t get the benefit of those 7 hours but I enjoyed the quiet time all the same.

Sometimes in photography you capture something beautiful but it doesn’t reflect truth. Other times though, the REASON the photo is beautiful is because you did – you captured the very essence of a person. I have not been able to stop looking at these two pictures of Tori because they are just sooooo Tori when she sleeps. They really reflect the perfect little princess that I have the blessing to stare at every day. Though I love her Easter dress pictures, something about these two turned out to be my favorite. I love the way her hair stands on end beneath that bow band – these photos also reflect the hair challenge LOL. Something about Tori has been reminding me of my mom. I hesitated to say that but then my mom said it too and I knew it wasn’t just me. Her eye shape is like my mom’s for one thing. (Did I already post that – feeling de ja vuish?). I really see my mom in these pictures. Jim would say we see what we want to. Maybe we just see our favorite faces in those we love. Sweetie and Tori top the list of my favorite female faces so that isn’t surprising.

Okay…I know what you are thinking. How in the world am I having time to do these pictures and post them near daily. Well….first of all…I am not doing this everyday. When I get a good chunk of time, either because Jim has volunteered his assistance or I am staying up way too late or both…I try to get several done at a time. Example…last night I did 5. That means you now know you have at least 5 more daily pictures in a row coming. 🙂 I had a GOOD time last night and felt inspired so I was happy with my end products. Sometimes the pictures themselves inspire me and that is what happened last night so they came together fast. Also, the constant interuption of feeding Tori every hour and a half (because by the time she finishes her bottle, she wants another one 1.5 hours later)…has gifted me with quiet time. I can sit at the computer and feed her and still manage to do a little bit. I can’t type much but I am getting good at short cuts and that helps. 🙂

Ohhhhhh Tyyyyyyyyy!!!

I seriously don’t know what to do with my little buddy. Yesterday was again, one of those days. Sweetie thinks it is because I am so preoccupied with Tori that my eyes aren’t catching his mischievous behavior as quick as usual so it is all stock piling. He was caught handling the remotes…several times…Tanner’s PCP…touching the DVD player, sneaking and eating Easter candy twice, getting the grapes out and spilling them all over the front room….sigh.

At one point I was heading towards mama meltdown. He was on a chair trying to get to the remote in his playroom. Now this might seem like a minor deal but the issue is that it is against house rules and he continually breaks it. There are three reasons why Ty may not use our remotes. 1. He quickly reprograms things and only he knows how to undo it – not real convenient for me and I really appreciate watching TV in English. 2. We are afraid he is going to delete our scheduled DVR recordings. 3. He needs to learn to sit and watch a show. It is his attention issues that drive him to the remote because of his need to interact with the tv. Instead of just sitting and watching, he is forwarding to favorite clips and watching them over and over or simply channel surfing without watching anything.

So….when I found him standing on the chair I demanded that he get down, SIT in the game chair IMMEDIATELY and does not even consider getting up! The usual mom tirade. I walk out of the room close to tears because I don’t understand why I can’t get him to follow through on this one rule that is a daily battle for us. Usually I start his movie for him and don’t make him sit through previews. I didn’t do that this time and the previews were long. About 10 minutes later I was walking down the hall…( I cried when I shared this with Sweetie and Jim) and I hear Ty sitting in that chair talking to himself. He is watching the previews (that are STILL going on) and he is repeating over and over “Just sit right here. It will start in a minute. It’s going to be on in just a minute.” To listen to him talk to himself like this over and over broke my heart. He is not an intentionally defiant kid but he has such a hard time resisting these specific impulses. Some of you are probably thinking that what I just described sounds a bit like autism. It is. Keep in mind that Ty does have a spectrum disorder which is on the lower end of the autism scale. He does not have autism but he does have SPD (sensory processing disorder). I think this is what makes it so difficult for him to center. All he could think of was interacting with that TV and when he can’t touch a button, and can only sit there and watch it – he isn’t “fed”. It isn’t stimulating enough for him. I am getting choked up again writing about this. Ty is so smart and most people would just never see these battles he has to fight. How in the world do I help him with this? Having to pray about it. It hurts my heart to have to be so tough on him with things I KNOW are a huge struggle for him but it is imperative that he learns for his life time good. God gifted him with a one in a million personality though and I know that God has a plan for His life and I pray Ty’s struggles today will serve to work for his good in the future. I was talking to a friend tonight who I think is ADHD (and I told her that) :). I think she has thrived BECAUSE of it. Her life has required her to have 10 times the energy of the average woman and because she can’t sit still for anything…she is almost always in task mode. She gets more done than anyone I know and her daily accomplishments make my head spin. For her sake, I wish she could rest but I am also grateful that her “hyperactivity” has served to benefit her in more ways than I could write about it. Let it be so for my Ty.

Jim is taking me on a date tonight! Woohooo! Both grandma’s are babysitting. I think I want Olive Garden.

Baby’s First Easter

Tada….Tori’s Easter attire. 🙂 Isn’t that a sassy little look? And yes I do realize her bow band was falling off. 🙂

Those who know me, will be shocked by this. I am not a shoe girl. Won’t likely be for Tori either. BUT she did need Easter shoes at least. That is the one and only time she has worn them. I like sockies. The only sockies that I can find that will stay on her though are the Carter Bootie Socks.

Yesterday Tori had her immunizations and was so sore afterwards. Poor baby girl! Because of this, I did get the very first 5.5 hour stretch of sleep during the night though. Yippeee for that. She weighed 9 pounds 4 ounces yesterday! She is 7 weeks now and her Dr. is so impressed with her weight gain. I have several more Easter pictures to share but they will probably be posted slowly over the week as I get them done. I love that little yawn. Darling isn’t it?


Tori’s pediatrician released her from lockdown yesterday. He said that the RSV season is really winding down AND Tori has been gaining so well that he thinks she is okay to go out now. We will still be very cautious about having her OR ESPECIALLY THE BOYS around people who are sick but we MIGHT be in church this Sunday. I say “might” because I know that some of our family members are still sick and I want to keep Tanner and Ty from that so depending on how they are doing by Sunday will dictate whether or not we venture out.


This means we finally get to celebrate Tori with her baby shower and baby dedication! Yeah!!! Her shower is scheduled for Sunday April 6th after the morning church service. Her dedication will also be that morning.

My Darling but EXASPERATING Ty

….oh my has it been an interesting Ty week. Sometimes I feel so sad for Ty because he just doesn’t know what to do with himself and he ends up getting himself into trouble. He isn’t being intentionally disobedient, he just wanders and disturbs the things he isn’t supposed to because (unfortunately) only electronical devices (and food) hold his attention. I have tried occupying him with so many things but it just doesn’t last. I have had moments of wanting to have both of us committed this week:)!!!

This morning I told him to put something down that he wasn’t supposed to have and to come to the breakfast table. I heard him in this little cartoon voice say “What else can you possibly take away from me!” – He was loosely quoting from The Incredibles. LOL (Mr. Incredible says “what else can you possibly do to me?”) I couldn’t help but laugh and feel a little sorry for him.

Yesterday morning he really cracked me up. I came to the breakfast table wearing a long sundress. Ty says “Mommy you do not look beautiful in that dress. You look beautiful in your bear jammies. Go put them back on.” 🙂 🙂 🙂 I love this kid.


Notice the temporary header change? I made this “Celebrate Tori” header the same day I made the other one and have been saving it in anticipation for today! Today is unoffical official severance day!!! I say unofficial because techncially severance occurs at the adoption hearing but as far as legal recourse goes…all the timeframes have expired. Sometimes it takes a little bit to get all that worked out so we have been anxiously anticipating the arrival of this day. I did not expect there to be an issue in this situation but having this done with is still cause for CELEBRATION!!!!! So for a little bit, I am going to slight the boys a tad and celebrate my daughter in the diary header. (I’ll bring them back soon enough LOL). The formal adoption should occur sometime in May or June. Looking forward to that day (though I feel so much better that there is no longer anything in our way). Thanking the Lord for His great mercy with this!

And Susie…yes I know that you want to see her Easter dress but I haven’t had time to play with those pictures yet. Maybe tomorrow I can work on it?

I am so mad at myself tonight because I have to totally recreate my layout above because I accidentally saved the original version in web size! Ahhhhh!!!! Makes me so mad to have to duplicate work. I need the original because I am doing these digi scraps for my DVD albums, displaying them on the web is actually my secondary purpose (though, I must admit…quite fun right now)! For all you Photoshop lovers, here is a little tip for you…that background was so fun and easy. If you use the single column marquee tool on your image and then transform and stretch it clear right and then clear left, you actually stretch the pixels of your image into a very colorful stripe that will obviously blend well with your picture. Of course you have to do this in layers so you can put your original image on top. If you create another layer and then stretch vertically and then change the blend mode to overlay and play with your opacity…you can make a nice plaid. In the above example I put a horizontal stripe behind one picture, vertical behind the other and plaid at the bottom. This picture had enough colors in it to make a very soft and pleasing color spread I thought. I realize that is a pretty shotty PS tutorial but if you work with PS often that will (hopefully) make sense to you. Heidi?


Yesterday when we were at Grandma’s, Grandma commented on Tori being a tad fussy at one point. Tanner looked at her and said “No she isn’t fussy right now. Her fussy time is at 7:00 PM and it’s only 1:30 PM“. Serious as could be. 🙂 He is soooo adorable. He is such a vigilent guardian of her schedule. I walked in the door from grocery shopping tonight and asked Jim when her last feeding was. Before he could reply Tanner says “7:30”. He keeps track of every feeding. What six year old does that? You should just see him with her…he dotes on her BIG TIME. He is constantly kissing her and stroking her hands and trying to comfort and cuddle her. It’s like he has all this bottled up affection and it’s pouring out on his baby sister. It’s also wonderful for me because as long as I have Tori in my arms, Tanner is cuddled up to me! Love it! He has been so happy since we brought Tori home. She just really lights Tanner up. Everyone who has been witness to it has commented. In fact, some of the pictures I took Sunday will serve as evidence to this because you can see Tanner smiling on in the background in so many pictures. I’ll have to do a little collage of that. I read back through diaries of when we brought Ty home recently and was reminded that Tanner, at two years of age, was the same way with Ty. He really loves babies.


Oh my adorable Ty…my boy who has been in to everything. He keeps asking me to read Curious George books to him and I am so not surprised that he appreciates this curious little creature. 🙂 Tonight he was so precious. I was wearing a black nightgown and Ty said “Mommy why aren’t you wearing your bear jammies? Take that off and go put them on!” I told him I didn’t really feel like it and I was happy with what I was wearing. He then says “For me? Will you put them on for me? Then I can cuddle you?” Like I could actually resist that. I had those bear jammies on in about three seconds. 🙂 I need to take a picture of me holding Ty in those fleece jammies. Precious memory for sure.


Tori and I watched her first girl movie together this weekend. Finally saw Enchanted. I got to watch a Princess movie with my daughter. (The boys actually liked it too). What an adorable movie! Made me write mental lists of girl movies I will need now. I already have (in mommy’s collection) Sleeping Beauty, Little Mermaid, Mulan, and Beauty and the Beast, Peter Pan and Aladdin but what more will I need? Hmmmm….. Never really loved Snow White but I do need Cinderella. Does Ever After count? That is my favorite version of Cinderella. 🙂 Any suggestions on the best girl movies?

She is sleeping a tad better now. Most of the time she sleeps from 11:00 PM to 3:00 and then wakes up again at 6:00 AM and then again at 9:00 AM so it’s 4 hours, 3 hours, 3 hours. What was difficult was that she wasn’t always going back to sleep after these feedings but in the last several days she has finally started to go right back to sleep. We have had her for 6 weeks tomorrow and today was my first nap! I’d say that is pretty good! I tried so hard to stay awake but while Tanner and I were reading his book for school, I just couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer. It catches up with you eventually. So what in the heck am I doing blogging at midnight then? I just got her to bed about half an hour ago and I wanted some mommy time. Other than that nap, I hardly had a moment to myself all day and I am the personality type that really requires some quiet personal time. I am rambling about mindless details now and I should be sleeping so signing off.