{"id":152,"date":"2005-03-18T01:13:12","date_gmt":"2005-03-18T08:13:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/x.jimanddoni.com\/?p=152"},"modified":"2005-03-18T01:13:15","modified_gmt":"2005-03-18T08:13:15","slug":"and-then-came-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jimanddoni.com\/?p=152","title":{"rendered":"And Then Came You&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/jimanddoni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/Mar\/IMG_6573small.jpg\" alt=\"\" \/>  Today I was in the bathtub staring into the eyes of my youngest son.  What beautiful depths of tender brown.  I could stare and stare and stare.  While he splashed away, my mind drifted to Amanda.  Sometimes when I look into Ty&#8217;s eye&#8217;s, I see someone else very precious to me and I smile that he was given this remembrance of her.  Words started flowing out of my heart, and when I got out of the tub I picked up pen and paper and started writing.   As some that read this are blessed by adoption, I thought I would share it with you.  As I will be copywriting this, I would appreciate if you did not reproduce it without permission <em>(which I would likely give you:)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>(I am putting this in the mail for Amanda tomorrow &#8211; shhhhhhhh &#8211; don&#8217;t tell her!)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>And Then Came You?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Today I looked into love?s deep pools<br \/>\nEyes of laughter, sparkling jewels<\/p>\n<p>Lashes so long to mama?s delight<br \/>\nEyes one dreams of while asleep at night<\/p>\n<p>Tears and laughter merge as one<br \/>\nAs I stare into the eyes of my beautiful son<\/p>\n<p>He was a gift from the Father?s hand<br \/>\nWhen dreams crashed like a ship hit land<\/p>\n<p>All I had hoped for and all I believed<br \/>\nCame tumbling down when no children conceived<\/p>\n<p>A family dreamed of, prayers unheard<br \/>\nHope crashing down in a single word<\/p>\n<p>Mourning ? desperate &#8211; sorrow untold<br \/>\nGrief and heartache no baby to hold<\/p>\n<p>The tiresome burden seemed too much to bear<br \/>\nWe?d look to heaven and scream unfair<\/p>\n<p><em><\/p>\n<ul>\nAnd then came you?<\/ul>\n<p><\/em><\/p>\n<p>Our story tragic and yours painful too<br \/>\nA reckless moment than a child was due<\/p>\n<p>Months of growing safe inside<br \/>\nBaby oblivious to the tears you cried<\/p>\n<p>Once so young, careless, so free<br \/>\nNow mommy and baby make two not three<\/p>\n<p>Without a father, no daddy beside<br \/>\nYou couldn?t be both ? even if you tried<\/p>\n<p>The goals, the plans, the dreams await<br \/>\nAll crashing down in this twist of fate<\/p>\n<p>Regret, fear, shame on the rise<br \/>\nThen healing came in a package disguised<\/p>\n<p>Some say adoption is a child unwanted<br \/>\nWords that result in a tender heart haunted<\/p>\n<p>But I know the truth behind desperate lies<br \/>\nA child unwanted in abortion dies<\/p>\n<p>Love so deep so wide so true<br \/>\nSacrifices alone and gives life anew<\/p>\n<p>Your heart is broken and few understand<br \/>\nThe legacy of a baby unplanned<\/p>\n<p>You loved him, nurtured him, while in the womb<br \/>\nYou gave him life instead of a tomb<\/p>\n<p>The grief now heavy, the loss so grand<br \/>\nPart of letting go of this tiny little hand<\/p>\n<p>Though despair threatens the distant horizon<br \/>\nMay God grant peace and hope arising<\/p>\n<p>We both needed mercy for the pain inside<br \/>\nLove that endures when miracles hide<\/p>\n<p>The gift was wrapped in a package so bare<br \/>\nBut the present inside &#8211; none can compare<\/p>\n<p>Reminds me that God is good all the time<br \/>\nEven when life has neither rhythm nor rhyme<\/p>\n<p>?Thank You? is inadequate for a gift so rare<br \/>\nA lifetime of gratitude for your tender care<\/p>\n<p>For you always ? we are ever fond<br \/>\nBetween us God forged an eternal bond<\/p>\n<p>We love you, treasure you, pray for you still<br \/>\nWe know this grief will take time to heal<\/p>\n<p>Your beauty, your laughter, your heart of gold<br \/>\nAppear in our son ? a treasure untold<\/p>\n<p>God gave him your eyes, your sunshine, your smile<br \/>\nThough for you this gift lasted but a little while<\/p>\n<p>Your legacy will live for generations to come<br \/>\nIn the child I am privileged to now call my son.<\/p>\n<p><em>Written By:  Doni Brinkman on March 17th, 2005<br \/>\nDedicated to:  Amanda <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>*Special Note:  For those dear to me that have experienced abortion &#8211; let His unfailing mercy cover you.  Rise and be free in His unending grace and embrace a new day.  You are loved.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I was in the bathtub staring into the eyes of my youngest son. What beautiful depths of tender brown. I could stare and stare and stare. While he splashed away, my mind drifted to Amanda. 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