Aunt Beck dropped off a CD at my door this week for me. She had made a compilation CD of many of her favorite songs and she thought I would love it so she made me a copy. While I was jumping on the trampoline today I heard a song that moved me deeply. Most of the song has nothing to do with “our story”. There is one line though that summarizes so much of how I feel about my boys. The song is called “Bless the Broken Road” and is by Rascal Flatts.
The line that captures my heart is this:
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That is exactly how I feel. It was the broken road of a family who had 11 cryopreserved embryos. They loved them. They wanted them. They could not continue to build their family and they had to find them a daddy and a mommy. It was the broken road of a young teenager who after one night of indescretion, carried the burden of pregnancy. This baby would have no daddy. She couldn’t be everything this baby needed. She loved him. She had to let him go. It was the story of a couple who felt desperate for children but could not conceive them. When medical science allowed them the priveledge of carrying them… they died. All the injustice, all the pain, all the loss…a broken road for all.
Then came the two little “you’s”.
Tanner and Ty.
If only I had known.
I would have run for that broken road.
Dreamed of it.
Clung to it.
It had a pot of gold at the end beyond compare.
I didn’t know then.
I do now.
Rascal Flatts – Bless The Broken Road Lyrics
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn’t see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I’d like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You’ve been there you understand
It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
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2 responses to “Broken Road”
It’s amazing how our lives have taken us down different broken roads and yet we are often on the same page. I’ve heard this same song on the radio several times this week and though about how true the words were for my life. The broken roads didn’t have the same cracks in them as yours did – and yet the brokeness in my life brought me to a beautiful place just as yours has…our families, our closeness to God, our better understanding of grace.
Amazing, sister of my heart, to read your message this morning and find we are once again on the same page. Amazing.
Oh you… in one sitting I go from giggling out loud at the story of Ty clocking Tanner over the head and in the eye because his head was in the way of his view of the TV (hmmm… my husband got in between me and my focal point during my non-drugged labor of my Nora during a really bad contraction – didn’t think to hit him in the head to get him to move… sometimes the best ideas come too late, don’t they?;) anyway, I go from giggling out loud to crying out loud when reading about your beautiful broken road. Through all pain, tragedy and hard work come growth and reward. Your reward is so sweet. I’m sorry you had to go through all the pain to get there, but your babies are beautiful and worth every tear. If you and I lived near each other I would come over and hug you every day simply because I think you are awesome (and maybe I would come over to see some of those tanner/ty shenanigans too!)