My heart is full today for many reasons, but I could not let another minute pass without sitting down and pouring out some deep rooted thoughts.??So here they are.
Monday began at the crack of dawn for Ferris and I.??While??he was struggling to get out the door for work I was back and forth on the phone with Landen’s sweet nurse trying to relay the past two hours of non stop activity. Trying to find a moment of peace and gather my strength to accomplish getting not only him to settle down but to wake up my three oldest children after a long weekend and get them ready and off for school. Because I have so much to say, I??will??only express that my day was very weary and seem to stretch out way too long. I spent Monday with??Ryan on my hip, Jacob at my side, Landen needing attention…not a good day in our home to say the least.
Monday night a world of change came into our home because of many of you. I was not expecting the overwhelming amount of support and outreach and to be completely honest I was speechless at the sight of gifts, baked goods, the cards, the time, and the check that will see Landen into the surgery room in just a few short days.
There are no words to express the gratitude that Ferris and I have for the out pouring of??LOVE that our simple little family has received. There are no correct words to let each and every one of you know the amount of??PEACE that has been felt. There are no words that can explain the amount of stress that has been LIFTED.
It was almost too easy to forget even for a few short minutes??just how difficult??our trials had become, how debilitating and unkind??our little Landen’s??disease has become.
Through these past weeks, I???ve tried to let my loved ones and wonderful friends know just how much I appreciate their kindness, their thoughtfulness, and their selfless help. And through these??weeks I???ve tried to be as optimistic and cheerful as I possibly can, but ladies and gentleman I am learning at a very extreme rate of speed that nothing is more precious for me than to not only give love but to KNOW and FEEL that I am loved.
As Doni would say “she’s just a baby” (meaning a new Christian) and it is so true. My faith has been tested in so many ways and I have found myself having to reach into the very bottom of my being just to hold on and accept all that I know is true , even if I cannot understand all of His plan. As I ponder this period in my life, I cannot help??but give gratitude to the Lord for receiving me. With out His hand I would be nothing. If there is anything that I have learned through??these past few weeks is that??”self”
is not the answer, that “self” is a big stone we carry around with us, that “self” only gets in the way and will only drag us down and never lift us up.
So as our little family enters this holiday season we want all of you to know that this enormous gift of love has not only been felt with gratitude, but because of all of you we are reminded that we are loved and that the Lord is are hope for our existence and the promise of our life’s eternal.
?? With Love,
?????? ThE JoLLEyS
Ferris, Susie, Logan, KyLeigh, Rachel, Jacob, Landen and Ryan.
P.S.—— yes there will be pictures taken CHRISTmas morning for all those wondering!!!!!!
6 responses to “From Susie…”
Susie, you bless me beyond words and our Lord God smiles upon you, his daughter, our sister, for your heart shines with His love. Merry Christmas my friend!
loving you. 🙂
You are all loved and your “army” is praying. Thank YOU for bringing CHRISTmas back to me!
Love you, Susie!
tears.
we love you and your “little family” (I mean come on – little? 6 kids does not = little in my opinion LOL!)
What a precious response, we love you right back and are standing beside you in prayer anxiously awaiting all that God has in store for you. Remember that whatever it is, it will be for your good and His glory! We can TRUST His heart. Aren’t you glad you’re a part of this geat big family of God???!!!