Yesterday I got to see my friend Meredith who I haven’t seen in awhile and she remarked that she was surprised at how good I am feeling.?? I AM FEELING GOOD!?? I have been happy happy happy!?? (Last time I saw Meredith she was sitting with me while I cried on the phone with the Dr. over the hysterectomy issue).?? And yes, that issue still needs to be addressed (but not today) :).

I have been realizing lately how BAD I felt last year.?? My FMS/CFS symptoms were so flared up and I had no idea what the root was.

This year has been soooooooooooo different.?? I have been taking vitamins, iron, CoQ10, and magnesium and this may be helping but I really think cutting out sugar and white flour has been the number one thing to turn my health around.

I have been waking up earlier than I have in a L O N G time. My house is getting cleaned, my laundry caught up, that dang Snowflake DVD was FINALLY finished, I have consistently been working with Tanner on??his “informal” kindergarten work daily (7 days a week not five), I have been doing little project stuff with the kids, lots of park time, I have seen some friends, I have made plans for a few upgrades in our house to accomodate home school, I have put in hours and hours of homeschool research, gone to the library several times, been working on long overdue personal projects, updated my budget, renewed my homestudy.?? Forgive the long run on sentence but I haven’t had the opportunity to write a list of things that I HAVE accomplished in a long time!?? I am so thankful!!!!!?? Of course, now my friends and family are wondering where I am because I seem to be even less available now but that is because I am up and going, no naps, and a busy to do list every day.?? The great thing is that part of my “to do” list is stuff with the kids and I have been able to really enjoy them lately.?? Ty and Tanner and I printed off Cars and The Incredibles clip art yesterday and made pictures with them.?? Ty thought that was fabulous and has been begging for more.?? He even went so far as to rip up his original so to defend that it was “ruined” and he needed to make a new one.?? Quite crafty of him I thought. :)???? This morning I was busy writing out word cards for Tanner so that we can write our own stories that are more interesting to him.?? See what I mean??? I haven’t had this kind of energy in awhile!?? I think another thing that is helping me is that I really simplified my life.?? Without therapy three times a week, and trying to??limit my weekly committments, I have been able to relax and prioritize better.?? I like the quiet life and right now I need.?? Thanking the Lord that??His mercy??is new every morning.

My Tanner

Tanner is such a sweet little pleaser.?? This week we were talking??about school and I asked him??if there was anything fun that HE wanted to learn about.?? He said “rhyming”.?? I said “Tanner you don’t like rhyming.”?? He said “But mommy that is what YOU want me to learn about right?”?? Melted my heart.?? It is hard to teach Tanner sometimes because he sets higher goals for himself than I set for him and he can’t tolerate failure AT ALL.?? One little mistake will send him right over the edge.?? I affirm him over and over and over.?? For awhile I was holding myself soley??responsible for this and was trying to figure out what I was doing to put so much pressure on him.?? I realized though that it truly is Tanner putting pressure on himself and that is why I have not been able to help him overcome this.?? He won’t cut himself any slack.?? Partly why I started supplementing his reading lessons with ClickNRead.com.?? He is a tiny bit easier on himself when working with an interactive program.?? A little less pressure involved I guess.

I took him to his first week of Athletes in Training (a one hour weekly physical education program at the park sponsered by a Christian Homeschool group).?? He cried his heart out for about 30 minutes and??I could not convince him to participate.?? He begged for??Ty to go with him (Ty is too young for the program right now).?? It broke my heart when he clung to my leg and said “Mommy I am scared”.?? Sigh…….

This week we go to plan B.????I will get a sitter for Ty and I will participate on the field with Tanner to help acclimate him.?? He say’s he will cooperate with this plan but that is yet to be seen.?? Hoping tomorrow goes better than last week.?? He??plays with other children very well but integrating into a new group is really hard for him.

My Ty

I heard a funny little conversation between Jim and Ty this week.?? As I listened to the exchange, my attention was drawn to Ty’s language and logic skills.??

T:?? Daddy – you chicken little soup.

J:?? Ty – you brocolli soup.

T:?? Daddy you bean soup.

J:?? Ty you piece of parsley.

T: Daddy you piece of pie!

:)?? My funny boys.

Landen

Please be praying for Landen.?? He is really really struggling this week and may be placed back into hospice care.?? Susie has a full day of MRI’s, EEG’s, and other tests.?? She is very sleep deprived and really needs us to pray them through this.?? My heart is heavy on this one….